16 August 2008, 4:31 pm
When I was living in Maryland just a couple days ago before I came back down to Detroit, I had gotten to know this girl, and believe it or not, i think that even though she is about 7 years older than me, (Im 19, she's 26) that we could make it work out. I mean she met me through her brother, and i swear on everything love, I had the first crush in about 8 or nine years. My stomach dropped. My chest got hot, and tingled like i was being cornered by a lion and my adreneline was way up. I don't think it was love, but it was some godd*mned thing. I have to say, I typically don't like having crushes, but this feels good. We started talkiing, and i got to know her a bit. but the thing that gets me is that she wanted to do things for me, like take me out to dinner and such. That was weird. I mean she could have had anybody in the world she wants (and I'm not joking, she is completely gorgeous) but she showed me love. I mean, I know I look good, but it just baffles me that out of all the guys who have more than I do, she still decided me. four days ago, I told her that it was too bad we couldn't have gone out - just the two of us, before I left. She smiled and told me her brother (my friend - am I a horrible person for that) would kill her if he found out that she was dating me, but I knew she felt the same regret as I did. Anyhow, she's in Maryland right now, and I'm back in the place I started, thinking about her, and looking stupid. The main thing was, I didn't even get to tell her how I felt. Damn this feels corny and soft, but at the same time, it feels good to vent. What do you all think I should do?... read more
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